Saturday, January 18, 2014

Who Am I? Bloggers Lounge #1

I didn't even remember how to get into where I last did a blog...yes, it's been that long. A friend of mine decided to blog again, and then another friend offered to submit my name for this group and well...here I am.

Who am I? Well, for starters I'm Taina, when you say my name remember it rhymes with China. Hence my screen name. After years of being Tonya, Tanya, Taieeena...you name it, I've been called it. I decided to help people out! Many people call me by my nickname Tai. Feel free to use it.

Moving on to more issues of who am I....

I am a mom to a daughter I wish I saw more of. Wish I could turn back the clock and make things more like they use to be. But I can't do that, so I take it one day at a time and I know that she knows I love her and would turn the world upside down to help her. I also know that if something happens and I need her, she'll be there. She loves me too. Life got in the way. I'm trying to push it aside, but that bugger is hard to move.

I am a daughter to two wonderful parents whom any person would be lucky to have as parents. They love me unconditionally, and are always there with food, hugs, offers to help and Kleenex to wipe tears, even at this age of 53. They are my biggest cheerleaders and I so appreciate all they've donc for me.

I am a sister. I wish I could turn back the clock on this one also and make life easier. Easier in the sense that life wasn't so crazy and we could spend some quality time together more often. I'm not one to intrude, even if you say there is an open door policy, I wait for the invite. It's how I am. So more times goes by without seeing or chatting than I'd like, but they both have such busy lives. Again, we all know we'd do anything to help each other. But it always seems I am on the receiving end of the help and never able to give back. One day...one day. But I love them both dearly.

I am an Aunt. All of my nieces and nephews are getting older and visiting with Aunt Tai isn't high on the agenda any longer. But I understand, I was young once. Seeing them smile, having fun and living life...that IS what makes it all worth while. And the stories they tell...well they sometimes leave me in tears...over the top joyful kind of tears.

I am a mother- in- law to a really nice son in law. He's kind and considerate. He is a good husband, provider and dad. Good morals and a good, good heart. Our entire family is lucky to have him.

I am a grandmother, rather I am a GiGi (the name I chose because I didn't FEEL like a Granny, MaMaw, MiMi, Grandmother, etc. And I will become a grandmother again at the end of April. My little Gman is my world. He was here just the other day, I took my eyes off that little rascal for two minutes and my dog took off out the doggie door and Gman followed. I heard a squeal and laughter and it was OUTSIDE. Oh my! All in a night of being a GiGi.

I am a lover of animals, Mother Nature, the elderly and I adore kids.

Other things I would say about myself are: I am kind, I give all I can...many times until it hurt. Right now I'm on a path that is gravel. Rough beneath me, lots of dust that hasn't settled and not sure where it's leading. It's a lonely path that  sometimes I close my eyes and trust that He will whisper in my ear when I need to bear left or right or just stand still for a while. I don't trust as much as I use to, I don't believe in fairy tale endings like I use to, I'm not the person that started blogging with GBE 1 all those years ago. I've gotten a bit beaten up in life, shaken around a bit and I'm trying my best to find my way back to me. So...Who Am I? Stand by, I'll let you know as I find out myself.

16 comments:

  1. Let me help you with this a bit! You are the definition of friend, love and hope. You are a bright spot in my life and I am certain many other's lives, as well. You are goodness personified.
    I believe with all my heart that He will always give you what you need if not all you may wish for. He knows that our wishes are not always what we need.
    Excellent re-entry post! I am just thrilled to read your words again and so proud of you for taking the plunge!
    Welcome back!

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    1. Thank you for all those kind words, words of encouragement that always come from you. YOU have been a beacon of light for me on many a dark days. Thanks for gently pushing me into coming back into the game. And also to Clarkster. It was so good seeing him back. So I hope I haven't lost too many during my sabbatical from blogging! I look forward to doing another soon. Thanks again Jo.

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  2. I'm so glad you decided to take up the pen (or, the keyboard) again and write. We'll expunge our demons onto the page together. You have always been a very kind, generous, WISE woman who has a lot to offer others. Welcome back, luv.

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  3. Thanks my Clarkster. Nice to know I have a buddy beside me. I'm rather afraid of demons! So you bat and I'll duck. Deal? I love you dearly.

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  4. A work in progress, processing those things that are important as they unveil themselves. This was wonderful to read, a glimpse into those things which you value in your life, and how life has helped to shape you.

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  5. Thank you NR for stopping by. I hope to get to know you better as I get back into the saddle of blogging. There was much more to say, but I figured the group didn't want to spend two hours reading my blog!!

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  6. Hi Tai! I was looking through my blogger reader today (something I haven't done for years), and was pleasantly surprised to see your post!
    You are a beacon, a shining light in the darkness. Don't forget your worth. Good luck on your journey in life and this new GBE.

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  7. Jean my old friend! You made me smile so broadly when I saw you had stopped by! Thanks for the love and support! You are a treasure to my heart! Give yojjubby and the girls my love! And of course a HUGE hug from my heart directly to yours sweet Jean!

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  8. Tai, it's nice to meet you and I'm glad you've found your way back to the blogging world! Sounds like you have a lot of love surrounding you and that's always a good place to be.

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    1. Likewise Amy Morgan! Seems I've been away way too long. I truly am looking forward to making new friends! Thank you dropping by!

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  9. Nice to meet you - a bit jealous of the grandkids, but maybe someday I'll get to play that role

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    1. Never stop believing Tyler. Good things I hear come to those who wait.

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  10. you are many things, constantly evolving. enjoy.

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    1. "constantly evolving " yes, I'd like to think so Daphne. Thank you for coming by.

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  11. Smiles...if ever you want to hold my hand as the gravel bites hard and the demons show up for the fighting, I am there with you....I have been fighting mine for a long time. I actually hope one day to write and illustrate a book about the monster under the bed and turn it from fearful to a friend who was trying to help but scared us....or something like that...hugs xxxxx

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  12. Elaine my sweet friend...your words touched my heart. Thank you.

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